Picture 359

So……
Sorry I have been gone for….FOUR WEEKS!
I thought it was two…..
Wow…
Ok.
Well, the reasons are unknown.
Well...they are, but they aren't.
It's confusing...

I did do a Thanksgiving day picture.
Here it is...

I was going to upload that picture then.
I had it all planned.
But…..
I don't know.
Something went wrong in my brain.
I didn't want to do anything.
So, quickly made the picture.
And it's been up for four weeks.
Showing me right now.
Empty.
My brain had a meltdown.
I'm good at hiding them.
No one could tell.
That's the bad thing.
My brain fights itself.
I can't sleep because I thinking about all the mistakes I have made.
Like mistakes when I was a kid.
It shouldn’t matter because that's 18 years ago and no one remembers.
And I was young….
Like…..5.
But I think about it.
And everything else.
Why don't I have a job?
Why is no one hiring me?
I have been going in every week and asking why.
Why won't they?
Why do I not to do what I love anymore?
Playing video games….
I don't…that much…anymore.
Pictures…
I have done 359+ pictures for 7 years straight.
I can't believe I have lasted this long.
Videos….
I actually used to make short film…things…
That's what my channel was…
Why did I change then?
I was making pictures like crazy.
The ideas came to me and I did them.
It was simple.
It was easy.
Now, I can't think of anything.
Is my brain done?
I'm I quitting?
Is it time to stop?
Should I stop?
………
NO!
I figured it out over the last week.
I did need to take a break.
I do why too much at one time.
It’s bad around this time.
  It's the end of the year.
So, I have to get ready for next year.
That means adding all the 2016 stuff to the sites.
And adding new stuff for next year.
That's what started the change.
I had that shutdown were I didn't want to work on anything.
I was looking at things on the sites.
I was like “I could fix that”….”I could change that”…”Here's something new I should add”….”I need to add the 2016 stuff”.
And that started something….
I was….working.
I was doing things!
I added the Christmas lights that you see.
I always get happy when I see them!
And I looked at my pictures and was like…..
“I have work to do.”
Which lead to my Aunt coming over.
We worked on the contest pictures!
I would show them….
But I want everything to be….hush hush....
I did upload them to my personal Facebook.
I needed people to vote!
They are so good we couldn't decide!
We have 39 and we need it get it down to….9.
So, I uploaded them and asked people to like the ones they like.
That gave me a rough idea of the good ones.
Based on the pool of likes.
But yeah! We worked on them!
I started working on the videos today.
They have to be ready to upload.
I played with my train!
We have to tree up.
Since I have the GoPro now….
I have been having a lot of fun with that train.
I have been doing things!
Speaking of videos, I still need to render the BTS videos for this project.
Oh…and speaking of this project!
Let’s get into it!
This continues the strange water series.
I wanted to get pictures of water and me in it!
But we don't have a pool.
What's the next best thing?
The tub!
This was after the first attempt at the pictures.
Things went wrong the first day.
I didn't wash my clothes and I had them on for the picture of course.
The water turned soooo dirty and gross.
I was like….
“I need a shower!”
Oh….the shower!
Maybe it could work!
So, I tried it.
This is where the picture comes from.
The set up was simple.
However, the coloring….a bit different.
I wanted the series to have a look to it.
It must look different from the rest.
The first picture sets the look for the rest to follow.
However, the first picture to a lot to get right.
I was using setting and adjustments I have never used!
So, it was easier this time around.
But that's still complicated.
I would give you a list of what I did….
But I don't remember!
It's been so long.
And I did some much so fast.
I know there was a boat load of contrast and clarity.
Compare!

Hover your mouse (the computer one :-P) over the original picture to see the after editing one.
If you're on a touchscreen device, just tap on the picture. You may have to tap more than once.

 Now compare the non cropped versions.
It doesn't jump around and you can see the changes better.

 AND! Just for fun.
Compare the before and after of the Thanksgiving 2015 picture.

AMAZING!!
Let's try the Image Slider.
Here's how it works...
There's a blue bar in the middle of the picture.
That's the slider.
The slider will disappear when you move your mouse off of the image.
I did that so you can really see the split.
But, it'll come back when you hover over it again.
You can CLICK on it and DRAG it around to get our on split image.
Or, you can use these presets.
Before FULL, After FULL, 50/50, Before a QUARTER, or After a QUARTER.

Before

After

Wonderful!
Like I said earlier, the BTS video is next week.
Which means the series is done!
And after that, I have some park pictures to work on!
Maybe I'll throw in some extra bits like Christmas and whatnot.
I don't know.
Thanks for reading.
I went on a ride there.
I stopped because I thought no one cared.
And they don't.
I still don't get any views on my videos or anything else.
But….I remembered….
It's not about that.
I don't care what people think.
I do this for me!
And people do care.
Seeing all the likes on the pictures.
Looking at my award from last year.
I'm ok now.
Mostly ok.
I still don't know my own brain but….
I know what I'm doing and I'm going to do it.
Come back next week.
I promise I'll do something.
Also...one more thing.
Yesterday was my sister in law's birthday!
HAPPY B-DAY to her!
I said that yesterday...

Today however....
Today would be my Grandma's birthday.

As you can tell by the old Picture 161...I was sad.
I wasn't that sad, I was actually happy.
Her last days where terrible.
I was sad that she had to go through all that.

I do miss her.
I miss the house.
I miss my grandpa too.

I'll get to see them again.