Five Years...

This isn't going to be as good as Four Years. I didn't sit down and plan anything out. Even though Five Years is WAY bigger than Four. That's half a decade. I feel old now! I recommend you go and look at the Four Years Post. I actually go back and explain things and give links and stuff. It'll be way better than this. And another reason is that I'm exactly at the same point. The only thing that is different is that I have lost more things this year. Mostly being my Boots. She was the last thing that involved my Grandparents and their house. I loved going to their house because I get to see them, I get to see my Boots, I made my show The Father about her father, and I made many of my other videos. All my early projects were made there. It was the only place where I could make a good video and not have anyone get in the way. That's also why the videos are a night or outside most of the time. My g-parents slept nicely. I could be loud and not worry about waking them. It was fun! Then, my good computer crashed. So, I couldn't make any good, complex videos because my little laptop couldn't handle too much. That put a halt on a lot of things. So, I focus on The Father and kept the show going. During the finale season, you could tell I was putting a lot of effort into the filming and the editing. The episodes got longer and the focused more on me. That's because in the back of my mind, I knew this was the last season. And it was. The Finale was my grand, hour long goodbye. The whole last season was the best way to go out. If you didn't know, the show was about Boots' Father, Phil. I knew all the cats at the g-parents’ house...but him. So, I made a show about me studying him and figuring out who he was and see if he acts like Boots meaning he was...her FATHER! The show's intro always mentioned me trying to catch him. I would chase him in the show and kept trying to capture him. I always wanted to pet him actually look at him...and his tail. The tip of his tail was broken and it dangles when he runs or walks. Well, what made the last season so great was...I caught him. It was the happiest day ever! One day I got to the g-parents’ house and he was just on the pouch. It surprised me! So, I didn't actual catch him. There were 17 episodes in that season and that was episode 4. I was able to pet him and he liked it! But in the next episode, my g-parents let him out when I was gone. But then, he was back in the next episode! However, he liked my pets before but this time, I could tell he was not happy. So, since my g-parent weren't there I let him out. That was the first time I knew it was the end though. The reason they weren't there because my g-pa was in the hospital. The next episode, I fulfilled my goal! I used my g-ma as bait and she lured him on to the pouch and locked him in. BOOM!! I DID IT!  But, once again, she let him out when I was gone. Then, I used her as bait again in Episode 9 and he was gone again in Episode 10. Episode 9 was the last time I caught him and cuddled with him. He actually liked it this time. It was amazing. But then, in episode 10, my g-pa went into the hospital again, never to return home. The show went downhill fast and I knew it was the end and that was the last time I got to see him up close. I still saw him afterwards, but with my parents not there, he stared to not show up. My g-ma went to see my g-pa every day and all day. So, they had no one to feed them. In the finale, he wasn't even there. Well, he was once, but he ran away and I never saw him again. That last episode was my goodbye to him and the house. I'll no longer have that space to make the show and videos anymore. However, that all changed. My brother and his family moved into the house for a little bit. I was EXCITED! I knew I couldn't make videos because I was spending most of my time with my family, but I thought I could continue the show! I couldn't though. The house was empty for a month or two. During that time, everything left because there was no food! They moved out with me only seeing Phil once. I made my true goodbye and left forever. I haven't seen the house in a year. I wonder how it's doing. Last time I saw it, it was in bad shape with things missing and windows broken. So, I went through that whole story to show how much I loved the house, the Father, the grandparent, and my Boots. Now, five years later...ALL of that is gone. They are still in my memories and my videos. That why I make my videos. I don't have any followers on my videos or anything that I do. I do this for me. I make videos to remember my past. It's my life's archive. They have been for five years. Still looking back, my video changed because of what I lost. The computer crashing and losing the house made me just stop making anything. Now, I just upload BTS videos for my blog. I still do storm videos. That's the only things I still film too. Whenever there is a storm coming through, I'm there recording it. I love doing it to. It was my second favorite thing next to the Father. Things are so different when you look back the whole five years. But looking back just one year, things aren't that different. I'm at the same point. The only thing is my Boots is gone. That was the worst loss too. You can tell by the ongoing series I'm doing. Things are so different, yet they are the same. This year is supposed to be my year. When, I get a job and a car and maybe move out! But that'll take longer than a year. But when it happens, I'll have my own space again and I can do videos again that aren't BTS videos. Like that Boots series I just mentioned. And with a car, I could chase storms! It's all exciting. Hopefully this year all that happens!! I CAN'T WAIT! Well, I'm running out of things to say. I can't think anything else. And that sums up this year’s video too. It's long and I don't say much. I'm just stuck in the same whole I was in last year. Anyways, thanks for reading this. Looking back is good to do. But don't grieve to long on the past. Look at how to make things better. Onto the video. It's 44 minutes long. You can CLICK HERE to see the video or watch it below.