Four Years...

Sooo...It's been Four Years already. And everything is still the same.

I make a video every year and, I wanted this one to be different.

I decided to write what I wanted to say.

Here is the copy I made in Google Docs.

make the 4 years video and thumbnail. It's also on a Wednesday. ;) Here's the video outline:

• open with me outside, pretty shots of random stuff.

• Me saying," there would be background music playing, but every time I use music, I get copyrighted. Including on the father's series finale.

• I'm leaning against the house. Maybe around the bedroom window.

• I say:

"Four years ago, I thought I would be somebody. Making cool videos. I thought I would hit a break through like what most people want on this site. I started off with my archiving events in my life. Like, vlogs. Those shark videos still gross me out. I went to Chicago, that was fun and cat chasing lasers was just adorable. But then I started to experiment and do what I was scared to do...my own thing. I started a series I have abandoned. Well, it still there. I just can't work on it right now. Anyways, I even said at the beginning of the video that is horrible and boring. But I continued it even though no one cared. Going back to the beginning, I tried a bunch of things. Cool Fourth of July videos, Gameplay videos, random videos, re-editing old videos, cool art videos, I even built things. But, nothing seemed to work. By the first year, I had nothing. But during that first year, on February 11th, I started something that I thought was just a hobby. My own show. Sure, again no one cared. But it was my own show. Like The Hunted, just... unscripted. Then, that show took over and there was a shift. You can tell. It took over. Before it started, the last real Hunted video was uploaded. Then I switch on to focusing on The Father. I still made videos dear to me though. Then, I started the funnest thing ever!  I started storm recording. The first episode was bad, but they got better and then that's all my channel was. the father and storm videos. I did a storm week and was having fun. But then, I did something random, and stopped The Father. It's wasn't because of winter, it was June, I wanted to see what I would do without it. I did random cat videos, I still did storm videos with another storm week including one of the most epic storms. It was the closet I got to a tornado. I still did 4oJ videos. But there was a hole. I even attempted to bring back the hunted. I uploaded this hidden video to go with the story. But it never got done...or did it. Instead I uploaded my first interactive video with was involved with the Hunted. Then, I gave in and started the father in a new way. he had his own channel! But I'll get there later, let's stick with the main channel. But I was still in the same routine on the main channel, storm video, random video. I still tried my old stuff. I didn't go to far. But things weren't working out. You can tell, my heart was on the father channel. By the second year of the main channel, I was the same. I mostly just did storm videos. Then...I stopped for a month. I came back with another storm week and just kept doing storm videos. Then... our computer crashed...and everything stopped again. I didn't have anyways to make good videos. All I had was a tiny computer. All I could do was un-edited update videos. And that's where I was at by the third year. I had nothing . Everything got behind. My sites, everything..but the father. Then I was my computer smarts from school classes and some how got my computer running at full force. But all it was was storm videos. I did a storm week, and then I did my 4oj videos, and that was it. I still just do update videos. And now I just do behind the scenes videos for my blog. My videos got longer over a course of time too. I can barely do a less that 7 minute video. That's where I at now, here, at this time. Now, as you can tell, like i said before, I was focused on the father. Moving back to when I started season two, I was having fun. But then, the realness sank in. The Father wasn't showing up. I was about to end the show for a bit. But then, poof, there he was. It was awesome for being unscripted. It looked planned. But it wasn't. The show started changing after that. I started putting a little teaser at the beginning, I was seeing what I could do. But eventually, I knew it would stop soon. He's never around in winter. So, I stopped it. But that doesn't mean I "stopped". I still looked for him. And he was there. I even had a cool experience. After winter, it was time to start again. I showed what happened of the break and then went back into it. I started it a bit early though. During the season, I had a feeling this would be the end. I was getting the great experiences. That, if it was the end, it would be the getting final season ever. Then..the big computer broke. I had a choice. The father  or the main channel. I picked the father. Even on my time computer, I still made episode with no delay. then...the realness came up again. It finally hit me that, this was the end. And I couldn't stop it. There's no way to make grandparents live forever. We had a scare with my g-pa. He almost went. But the fighter in him pulled through. So, I continued on. But then, it happened again. I knew this was it and if I was going to stopped, I was going out big. So, I stopped production of the show. I still filmed, but I was going to wait until everything was done. Until I couldn't go up there anymore. And that meant on of y g-parents leaving this world. My g-ma was the only one at the house. If my g-pa went, then they'll put her in the nursing home. But if she went, they just kept him in there. Double lose. My g-ma left first, I cried for 10 minutes at the viewing. That time hit and so, I started on editing the Finale. After two weeks it was done. One hour long. It 36 hours to save. But I knew, this would be the way to go. On August 15th, I uploaded the finale. But then, a break through at bad time. My brother and his family moved up there. I was like... "REALLY!! I JUST ENDED MY SHOW AND NOW I COULD KEEP GOING!!" But, I didn't have to. I saw him once. And they saw him a few more times. Then,  he disappeared. My g-parents put food out for them, but with them gone., He just...left. My brother wasn't going to feed them. Which was good. Who want's stray cats everywhere. And now, again, we are here at this current time. Four year of internetness. And I'm at the low of lows. I have nothing. The Father is gone, I'm still not making videos. I don't know why. I have a bunch of storm video ready to upload. I have projects to work on...but I don't. I'm waiting for something. I just don't know what. I'm starting to quit on everything. I picked up photography. People love my pictures. But, I'm even starting to stop that. I'll get through this, I have in the past. Maybe when storm season comes around. I'm just going to keep doing what I doing. Ever if no one cares. I've done it for four years, why stop now.”

• videos to download and use, in order.

I cut out all the links to the videos. There were 100...

And they were all my videos. Flashbacks.

I printed this off and read it in the video.

Well, I summarized.
....hhmm....I was planning on talking more.
But I don't know what to say...

Anyways, now brace yourself...here's the video.

It's 33:30!! minutes long. Just watch the beginning, it's pretty.

You can CLICK HERE to see the video or look below.